It's frustrating when I seem to be the one who's trying harder to keep a conversation going. Why can't you understand it take two to clap? Sometimes I feel as though I'm too far away from them. It really brings down my morale. Why am I doing all this.

Argh. I know it's hard to put words into action but sometimes, you really do need to climb into other people's skins and crawl around in it. It won't do any good to be selfish. It's just short term gains but what about in the long term? We must always think in terms of the big picture. It's just like enjoying an expensive meal with all the money you have and end up having to starve for the next umpteen years. Alright, that's a stupid analogy.

I feel like I'm just rambling on and on to no one in particular. I feel old.